Docu-series on Lindsay Lohan kicks off on OWN
"I'm only interested in what is the truth," Oprah Winfrey told Lindsay Lohan, 27, at the start of Sunday night's "Lindsay", the first of eight episodes of the OWN docu-series about the star.
And what did the truth look like during that first hour?
Lots of boxes, a vow to avoid 'chaos,' a fashion show, a visit with mom Dina, more boxes and an endless search for an apartment in Manhattan.
Episode 1 started with the interview Oprah did with Lindsay last August, asking her what she is addicted to, what is her drug of choice. "Alcohol," says Lindsay. They talk about Lindsay going to Europe, and Oprah tells her she thinks it's not a good idea. Lindsay decides not to go.
In the next scene, Lindsay's in a car in Los Angeles.
Docu-series director Amy Rice is in the back seat, asking Lindsay how the last few days have been for her. Lindsay explains that she has an "inner peace," that the "chaos" of daily life "doesn't really affect" her anymore.
As Lindsay is shown going through boxes of belongings and packing things up to move to New York from Los Angeles, her rap sheet is shown - arrests, probation violations and six rehab visits.
"Living with integrity and in control of my own self - that's the life I want now," she says.
Clips are interspersed featuring unnamed fans being interviewed. Most express hope for to get better.
"I'm excited to start this new chapter, so it's going to be good," Lindsay tells the cameras.
Next we see her being driven around New York, searching for an apartment in Soho. It's warm out and she's wearing strappy sundresses.
Michael Cormier, sober coach from the Cliffside Malibu facility, is with her to help her.
"I hate not having set things to do," says Lindsay, who is anxious to get settled. She needs a place that can be her "sanctuary."
At 22 days out of rehab, she is still living in a hotel, heading to mom Dina's house on Long Island.
Matt Harrell is Lindsay's personal assistant. He has worked with Prince, Shaun White and Steven Tyler and now he's constantly by Lindsay's side. And he always wears a suit. "I think this is probably the biggest point of her professional life," he says of the docu-series. "It's Oprah. If she screws this up... She knows what's at stake."
Lindsay is storing her belongings at her mom's house. We see them go through the boxes of clothes again. Her brother, Cody, shows up and she gives him a big hug. "He's so close to my heart. He's so cute," she says. "There's so much love in all my family members." She adds, "It really will be nice when that day comes when there's no more talking and there's only positive things being said. And that will come."
She smokes cigarettes. She continues to look for an apartment. She is invited to the Venice Film Festival and doesn't think she wants to go. All the talk will be about rehab, she says. Her sober coach doesn't think she's ready. They all sit around her hotel room and go through her jewelry instead. Paparazzi are outside, keeping them inside.
Ever feel like you're a prisoner, asks Rice.
"Yes," laughs Lindsay, who is busty in a strappy, bra-less tank top. "All the time." (Lots of jokes pop up on Twitter about Lindsay not being able to find a place to live - or being able to find a bra.)
At 34 days out of rehab, Lindsay agrees to shoot a cameo in a short film to promote a lingerie line. But once on site, she finds out it's not exactly as billed. She is being asked to do some "weird dialogue." She tells the camera, "I don't like being lied to. Because I don't like being a liar." She winds up having a meltdown, crying, and ultimately pulls out of the shoot.
Next event: The Wendy Nichol fashion show during New York Fashion Week. Lindsay's sister, Ali, is walking the runway in the show. "I started to get a little choked up," says Lindsay, who gives Ali a big hug after it's over.
Finally, after looking at 10 apartments, Lindsay has found one she wants, but her real estate broker isn't coming through for her. When she's told she's expected to get a $10 million insurance policy, she says, "I can't do that. I'm not Oprah!"
At this point, Lindsay has been in a hotel for 36 days and now wants a change. "I need to get out of that room!" Her assistant goes back to the hotel and moves everything down the hall (and she's got a LOT of stuff).
"It's the first time I'm really getting a place in New York and it's really chaotic," she tells cameras, somewhat upset by everything. "I'm trying to figure out how to be sane and live, how to live out of a hotel, which I did when I was in a crazy phase in my life and that brings up a lot of memories and I hate it. ... And now I'm figuring out everything for myself with things being left up in the air constantly."
But, she points out, "I'm here. I'm showing up. I'm sober. And I'm dealing with it."
USA Today contributed to this report.